pantoum's Diaryland
Diary
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POETRY POSTING 2
Here's another poem. I wrote this one for my paternal grandmother, whom I adored.
I'm not happy with some of the line breaks and punctuation, but it's already been published in this form. I still play with it though.
A poem for a friend follows.
Then, finally, a villanelle about growing up queer in South Carolina bored out of my skull and driving around in circles wondering how to escape and build a meaningful life for myself. That one's published in an early form, too, but I still haven't gotten the 4 a.m. line right yet. I don't know the HTML code to indent the 4 a.m. line, but it's supposed to have a deep indent.
I.C.U. for Nina (1912–1994)The hideous glass swan I gave you one Christmas sits in a rack on the table, its back exposed and empty: a hole to be filled with candies— anything to conceal the gaping hole, to conceal the casket, lowering. I dice carrots and onions, garlic fresh from the ground, mix a stew with ingredients I've never recorded— its taste as strong as your table planted in this common kitchen forged from our own blood. Blood on the cutting board, fat to one side— our meat is dredged in flour then dropped over fire. The wood is splattered with us and my arms offer no protection. I keen into the kitchen utensils: pots and spoons and cast-iron pans that will outlive us all. The Tupperware secure behind your fine bone china and the silent morning stove, already cooling.
© 1991. •
OUTSIDE CAROL'S WINDOWLook at the red world and smoke it The naked hard clouds say bleed Whispered voices wake sacred marble things Move through them Know their breathing Bend the trees with concrete arcs of questions The sky is not his hand and will not harm you Dance into this wind in your own gown © 2003 •
DRIVINGWe rode those streets in search of something more than another night of six packs in my car. We rode those streets like we'd been there before. In a rusted-out Camaro bought cheap to restore we crossed the Georgia line in search of bars and rode those streets in search of something more than the endless TV gray inside the door of one more milltown evening, too familiar to those of us who'd seen it all before. So I raced red lights while you kept score and Lynyrd Skynyrd played on blown-out woofers and we rode around restless, wanting more but not knowing where to find it. Then, already 4, and low on gas, we'd sneak up sagging stairs that had given us away late nights before and find my bed. Feet dangling toward the floor to stop the room from spinning, no answers for the questions in our heads, we tried to imagine more and stared at peeling walls we'd seen before. © 1999
12:15 p.m. - 2005-05-09
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